I find it almost ironically amusing that my decision to rejoin the Watchtower in 1975 in order to “save my children from being destroyed by Jehovah” at Armageddon should result in my not only eventually coming to the stark realization that I had been fooled by a false prophecy…an outright LIE…but that one of those precious children of mine should grow up to ultimately see me as a tool of Satan; “repulsive” and “disgusting” because I do what I can to help and support any member of the Watchtower that may reach out to this site, and because I tell the truth about what I know about the Watchtower Organization…and because I tell the truth about Jesus…
One may laugh, and ask, “Didn’t you know that your Jehovah’s Witness son would come to hate you for becoming a Christian? and for speaking the truth about the Watchtower Organization which he faithfully serves?” Yes, but even though his response is a common one, my sweet and loving son has, for the most part, always been very kind to me…I am writing this because my beautiful Jehovah’s Witness mother, who is the most loving and sweet souled person I know…who has always stood by me and never shunned me…has suddenly chosen to cut me out of her life. Again, yes, I understand that we all must pay the price of no longer “bowing down to the Almighty Tower,” but for my mother to behave in this way tells me that my sweet son must have gotten on the phone after he sent me that cold letter and warned her that I am all over the internet spreading “lies from Satan,” and “speaking against the Watchtower,” which is true and which is not true.
In my research, I look at any YouTube videos I can find that will give evidence or proof of what the Watchtower so boldly taught as “truth” so many years ago in their literature and which they also preached from their platforms; teachings that young Jehovah’s Witnesses today say, “never happend,” and which older ones who were there seem to have conveniently forgotten in view of “New Light.”
I may make a comment on a video, and then I may get a response, and I respond in turn, and I answer their questions according to Scripture, and according to what I know is true, (as I want to speak the truth), and I will speak out against spiritual tyranny, and I want to tell the truth about God’s Plan of Salvation through Jesus, which the Watchtower has purposely kept from their members, and for this I am “wicked,” and for this I deserve to be shunned by my mother who once loved me dearly…
I am struggling with this…my children’s father, with whom I was very close, died last month, and oddly, he told me that he was very proud of me and what I do…that I try to help struggling JWs…and now that he is gone, my son…our son…has decided to not only spew anger and hate toward me, but to take from me my dear mother, and worse, to take from HER her daughter whom she loves so much; putting her in the Watchtower position of having to “prove her loyalty” to Jehovah by refusing to have anything more to do with me.
After all, it IS “loyalty to the organization” that matters overall, so what real choice did my loving mother have? If she had refused to see me as a “wicked apostate,” (one who is “spreading lies from Satan”), and if she had chosen to continue to have a loving relationship with me, she would have been in trouble, and she may very well have been called before a Watchtower Committee to question her “loyalty,” and as she is old and frail, and as she loves her dear brothers and sisters in the organization, and as she dearly loves Jehovah God, and as she cannot lose her standing in “God’s Organization,” and as she does not want to lose her “righteous standing before Jehovah,” her “choice” was clear.
And so I say, “Score one more for the Watchtower.”
Jesus told His followers so very clearly that this would happen
In Matthew 10:17 Jesus said of “Jehovah’s Organization” of His day that they would “scourge” in their synagouges those who had left the faith to follow Jesus, (which I have no doubt that the Watchtower would do to us JWs-turned-Christians if they could), and that “children will rise up against parents and will have them put to death. And you will be objects of hatred by all people ON ACCOUNT OF MY NAME…” vs. 21-22. (NWT)
I choose to follow Christ as my King and as my Shepherd and as my Savior, and as Jesus said to His followers at Acts 1:8, “…and you will be witnesses of Me both in Jerusalem and in all Judea and Samaria and to the most distant part of the earth,” I will do that to the best of my ability through Christ who strengthens me. (NWT)
As I struggle to come to terms with my mother now shunning me in the name of “loyalty to Jehovah,” I am comforted by Psalms 27:1, which says, “The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life…” (KJV)
Psalms further goes on to say:
“When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take care of me. I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the Lord!” Psalms 27: 10, 13-14 (KJV)
I always call my mother around this time, but I know that if I do, her phone will just keep on ringing; like in the old 1969 song, “By The Time I Get To Phoneix”:
“I’ll just hear that phone keep on ringing…off the wall…that’s all!”
I try calling my mother on her cell phone just so I can hear the loving sound of her voice, but I know she will not listen to my message of love to her, and so I sit here and I write this to anyone who also knows the depth of the pain that the Watchtower can cause one to feel in a heart that did not know that it could bear such grief…
I not only grieve my children’s father, I now grieve the loss of my precious son, and I mourn the loss of my sweet and dear mother who will die soon, and I am greatly grieved that I cannot go to visit her, as we had planned, or even talk to her.
Today I mourn the loss of my mother to the depths of my being; and I remember that Matthew 10:35-36 says that Jesus came to cause a division; that one’s enemies would be those of their own households…members of their own family…so I know that I am certainly not alone in my pain. (NWT)
I am resolved before God and Jesus Christ to speak the truth. I will stand up for the truth.
Jesus said at John 15:20 that a slave is not greater than his master; that if they perscecuted Jesus, they would perscecute His followers. I will pray that Jesus and God will guide me in all things, and that I might be an instrument of His will. (NWT)
There is a great war going on. It is not a fleshly war, but a spiritual warfare, and those of us who know the truth according to God’s pure Word have a responsibility to stand up for it; to tell the truth; to stand up for what Jesus died for…
“For though we walk in the flesh, we do not wage warfare according to (what we are in the) flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not fleshly, but powerful by God for overturning powerfully entrenched things. For we are overturning reasonings and every lofty thing raised up against the knowledge of God; and we are bringing every thought into captivity TO MAKE IT OBEDIENT TO THE CHRIST” 2 Corinthians 10:4-5 (NWT).
May we all seek God’s guidance in all things, and may we all find comfort and strength in His Word and in Jesus Christ, who is our peace, and in the fellowship with one another!!
(Ephesians 2:13-14) (NWT)
In God’s Grace,